My first mistake, I think, was that I expected something from turning eighteen. Not that I blame myself. It's perfectly reasonable, anticipating the turning point, the beginning of the rest of your life.
Looking back, though, I don't really know what I expected. And I can't tell what it is, but I do feel differently. But from here on out, as 2014 carries more oncoming changes than I can list, I've decided to try taking the experience as it goes, instead of wondering what I'm supposed to do or feel or think. I don't think I'll ever stop wondering what it all means, but that's just who I am. Even if it can get really irritating.
I've taken down my wall mural and I've cut my hair and I started a legit blog. But, most importantly-
If only. Unfortunately, I am just a tiny, confused quasi-adult with too many opinions, not enough discipline and unclear direction. And I'm still living under my parent's room and alternating between my sisters' rooms (it's going to be a good couple of years before I'll actually have a room of my own). But until I am able to reach Bey-levels of togetherness (ugly laughing), I have this blog to try and have something together. Among several tumblrs and a twitter and I don't honestly know how I'm going to discern what goes where, but I'm just going to go ahead.
And I won't ever know what to expect.
RACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I'm excited about this.
And don't get me started about What does it mean. Girl we need to get meta together.
ahhh keren! everything happens so much, but at least we have each other.
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